Oh, this is me

I am completely confused about how to express my feelings at this moment. Actually, I never know, but I still want to say...

I fear loneliness, but I like quietness. I can’t even find out who I am, and how I am. You may find I’m stolid, but I’m not. I fear noise sometimes. It seems I am quiet, but I’m not.

What I love—there are a great number of things. I love hard-working most, but sometimes I can’t. I don’t know why. As for my hobbies, I like skiing, swimming, and piano. Skiing is my favorite because wind whistling from my cheeks gives me some passion. Oh, I enjoy math, really really enjoy.

I lost something important—courage. I am wondering when I lost it, but I couldn’t find. I lack courage so I can only be thinking.

I fear talking a lot. This is me. I don’t want to lose it though I need to change. This is me!